Dear Diary: I Am Just Waiting For My Analgesic To Kick In

My life now is never the same again as I have to take some pain medication first in order for me to use the bathroom and I couldn't imagine how I could move about without some easing of the pain from my hip joint.

I think that it also needs replacing because my bones really are like from that of an elderly person so it just makes me so sad about it and so frustrated that I was able to think negative things in my life.

But I really wish that this would end soon, even people doesn't want their animals to suffer, that is why there is such a thing like euthanasia. But sadly enough I could not do that for myself because it is a sin to take your own life. Too bad for me so I will have to really suck it up and die a lingering death just like a shot deer but was able to run and hide and suffer.

But you can't blame me for thinking about such foolishness because of the compounded misery that I am experiencing that keeps on getting worse as weeks pass-by. I am just driven by my own life goals that I am keeping not only for me but also for my parents. I already had seen a lot in life but not experienced it, I think that is just enough since I couldn't live a proper life anyway unless a miracle happens again in my life.