Dear Diary: I Am Angry with My Body
Most of my contemporaries are long, long gone. Turned already to a compost heap and bones and are now waiting to be resurrected for judgement and some to inherit the kingdom of God. But one thing is for sure, they are all resting, no more pain, no more fear, uncertainties of what will happen, of what to do when there is a problem. No more problems.
But me, I am left with a broken body with a burden on my mind on the side. it is hard to live in this kind of situation as my body has a progressive bone disorder that now also gives me pain in my mouth as my teeth just strikes my gums and not to mention the enlarging gums and I don't know how large it will grow, it is just hideous-looking and shocking. My mouth is always wide open and is straining me mentally.
One major game changer is my back and now back from dialysis where it washed the effects of pain medicines that i took a while ago, my back is just on a raging rampage. My only solace is when I am sleeping which makes me not to feel anything.
I just always pray to die on my sleep. It has been so many years already and why I am still around? It is just funny too that I am writing about this while I am in deep discomfort. It is also because of my need to fund my needed medical necessities and in the future as no one in my family has the full support if not has the capability to do so for me.
You could forgive me when I am saying that I am really angry with my body. It won't give-up, to hard-headed while some of my fellow patients just died so easily. Me I am dying hard. My pain doesn't allow me to do things like before and it robs mee with a lot of things already. Life shouldn't be like this and it is not the way to live life.
I actually am out of words to tell you right now @cryptopie, but I'm still passing by nonetheless to let you know that we are praying for you.
God bless you,
❤ @arrliinn
Thank you @arrliinn I need all the prayers and thoughts from you.
God Bless and Keep you.
To everyone fighting with/for @cryptopie, I would like to put a letter together explaining Arnold's journey situation and needs, including past and present pics. I would like to send it to churches, charitys, governments, and doctors worldwide! Of course social media and email will be acceptable but I want this story in paper writing mailed everywhere. As long as Arnold is still alive and fighting he really needs some relief! Big time! Im not a great writer, i have my own pain/situation so i would really appreciate if we could network and get the "perfect letter/artical" written and join forces to send to before mentioned and especially in paper form. No one should have to endure this and together I am very confident WE can make a huge difference. Extending beyond the beta version of steem. We really need the full complete well written letter to be sent to doctors churches charitys governments worldwide! There are wealthy educated caring people out there i know would love to help! We need to get this message out! Again please contact me if you can help or have any further ideas. Lets save Arnold. Ty
@cryptopie maybe you could write it as well, i know you have been. I really want a good format to communicate your story to the right "high up" people...
I appreciate your caring, love, and support Jon @weirdheadaches
I have no idea how I could make the capable people to see my situation. It is a complicated matter for me unless someone does it for me.
I really do plead for help and luckily I am finding it here at @steemit and Bless you people that supports me.
Steemit works but for maybe contacting a politician, churches, and organizations, I need a lot of assistance as I have no idea how to do it.
Once i get a letter in hand i will send them to where i see fit. Some of these church communities work wonders @cryptopie
I do not even know the right words to use right now, because it is saddening to read all about all the pains you have to go through. I pray things get better for you.
Thank you for the prayer and support @oluwatobiloba
Prayers, love, light and Reiki sent your way!!
Thank you for the hugs and prayers @thethreehugs
You are most welcome. How are you doing today? Looks like you have overwhelming support and prayers. Hang in there! Like you said, you are still around for a reason..
Prayers for you especially for more strength and healing.
I love this classical music Moonlight Sonata.
I like it sad, blue, grey, and raining.
Me too! :D
Ha ha
Hard-headed bodies.
If not for the ain and eating and speech disability and possible blindness, I'm okay with it.But it all just stacks up on me T-T
Big hugs and courage sweetypie! <3
Thank you for the support @jamisa
God Bless you.
No such thing as an easy death my friend!..do you know what is waiting for you in the afterlife my friend!..if you did i don't think you would wish for death!..who told you all the people who die are resting peacefully? or have you ever heard a "uff" sound from anyone who dies? ..find the truth,find out what God expects from you as a human being!..wishing you good health my friend!
Yes a hard death is what I am worrying about so I envy people ddying in their sleep.
Thank you for the support @bluestacks
I feel you @cryptopie that also happens to me >< , it's so very painful. But breaking with your girlfriend is much so painful 😂😂😂. Followed, Upvoted and Resteemed. Get well soon @cryptopie ^^
How is it to have a girlfriend?
I haven't got the chance. >-<
I believe with your body looks great! you just have to smile :)
Yes my body looks interesting for medical science
It is hard to smile when I am in pain everytime.
I think your body is nice to anything. If you smile, you will not feel the pain anymore