Dear Diary: I Am Always Craving For Food But It Is Different When It Comes To Eating It
I really can eat well but only at dialysis times and after dialysis my appetite goes into the drain again especially after I had taken my parathyroid medicine. So often I would just eat fruits and juices like pineapple juice but not those powdered ones that have additional phosphates that I am avoiding.
So if the food is not that tasty for me I will just eat some and I mean a few spoonfuls and I am done. It is the reason for my emaciated physique and eating really doesn't make a difference. It is really hard to for myself to eat because of my appetite issue so my body suffers.
I am just fortunate enough that my resistance to illnesses like this recent cough that I had is extraordinary and it is helped by my very good blood hemoglobin levels that is the factor that I am able to at least eat some food or I will not be able to eat and will make my health go in a downward spiral.
But I like eating fermented foods or foods that are pickled with vinegar because its strong taste just gives me some kind of appetite. But again those foods are scant and I am just resorting in drinking fruit juices, fruits even though the potassium content would stop my heart.
Often I am just forcing myself to eat so that at least I can get some protein and calories in my body so it won't lose weight even more. I am praying that soon when I am financially able to get my parathyroid surgery I will opt in even though it is risky but I am believing that the risk is outweighted by the benefits of the things pertaining to my medical goals. May god help me with my dreams.