Dear Diary: December 31st Health Update

Right now I hurt my left rib again and it is hard to sleep on my right side now and even though it is painful there I would anyway lay on it because I could not sleep while on my back or laying down on my right. I might take some pain medication for tomorrow if that proves to get worse.

So far I am still the same with regards to my facial condition but it seems that my Leontiasis is creeping up so I just have to continue on taking my parathyroid medicine for it and if not I will make it worse so even though it is an expensive medication I just have to continue for my well-being's sake.

I am also not getting a good clean at dialysis because my blood pressure is keeping on dropping because at that point they would adjust the machine making a minimal cleaning action to my blood so I get "dirty" quite so fast and it affects my eating habit as well as my well-being.

My Tinnitus is also apparent and it is maddening to have a ringing ear syndrome. My electric fan if turned off because of the cold weather and in turn I could really hear the ringing more profoundly. So I am forced to turn on the electric fan even though it is cold and dry.

Walking is proving to be a crap too because of my knees, feet, and leg pain combined with breathlessness. The joints in my left feet is always mis-aligning so it creates pain after standing up. I have to carefully massage it back so that the pain could go away.

I am just surprised that I am still alive despite my breathlessness issue as I am susceptible to pneumonia because of that. Now I am just preferring to be on my bed most of the time because the discomfort in walking is not worth it truly.

What I am grateful for at least is that my back isn't that problematic anymore because there is just a minimal lingering pain but sitting around really is a chore and I couldn't really last sitting around very much that is why I am using my camping chair when I do sit around.

My appetite is still poor too and my limited food choices adds to the problem especially if the food wasn't delicious or if the meat is so tough I will not eat it.

I am also having a heartbeat issue, maybe because my heart is weakening already so I just want it to stop abruptly if it would conk out on me LOL. That is just a reality that I have to accept.

Now although my condition is bad it is relatively okay compared to the months that I am in pain with my back. What I just need right now is lesser pains in my body, hoping for my Leontiasis condition to stop, and my breathing problem to go away, as well as gaining true weight which I am struggling with for many years now.

I am not overly optimistic but is just a person trying his best to fight these kinds of sandwiched medical problems with the help of God a few kindhearted individuals in my life. May God bless you all.

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