Dear Diary: Another Long Wait For My Dialysis

My Life Is Always In A Vicious Waiting Cycle

I am as usual already not feeling well with my body because it is the eve of my dialysis session. I am intolerant already with food and fluids and I couldn't eat more considering that I am not eating much everyday and only having meals twice per day in minimum amounts.

There are factors to blame, one is that I am already full of fluids in my body so there is no more room for fluids so if I would to eat and drink it will just add up to the pressure and I would just suffer more breathlessness and high blood pressure.

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The other factor is the one that I am enduring just to prevent my body to feel more pain and more ridiculous deformity that is caused by Leontiasis which in my deepest darkest nightmare had never came to me but yet it is here and just wrecking havoc in my body and I have no choice but to manage it both financially and physically.

I must force myself to wait a little longer so that I can be able to switch to a peritoneal dialysis. In that way will be able to get liberal in my fluid intake and my meals. It might be well the type of treatment for me because it cleans the body continuously unlike the hemodialysis where treatments are only done twice a week and I have to rely on other people to determine my real dry weight.

I just have to hope that cryptos will make it happen for me but I am still OK if I will not be able to achieve that goal since in this life things are not in our control sometimes.