Ulog Diary: Throwback To My Madness

About two years ago, I was totally down, physically and mentally.
I'm not one to deal with my stuff with people, I tend to withdraw into my own world and sort my issues so I remember deleting all SM apps on my phone and retreating into my own world, I totally shut my friends out and for a while nobody knew where I was or what I was up to.
When I got a bit better, I called my best friend.
When she picked, the first thing I said was " **** I'm sorry baby, I know I shut you out"
And on and on I went to explain what happened.
I worked really hard to earn my friends back and we lived happily ever after😀😀😀.
I did not text them "Hiii" on WhatsApp after disappearing for two months.
Some people are mad.
Very not okay.
They will jump out of your life like someone who is trying to get into all those Lagos buses that people jump and enter, then years, months,weeks later they'll just reappear in your life and they'll do it so normally as if though the years, months, weeks and days have not passed and that everything will continue from where it stopped.
Just last year my girlfriends and I talked about Ghosting in relationships.
I recently realised that ghosting happens in platonic relationships too.
One friend will stop communicating, she knows in her shallow mind that she is the one who dropped all forms of communication then she suddenly wakes up years later and text "Babe how far na?"
Thunder fire all of thnah.
I have plenty of "Haba Shallom, you just forgot about me like that" sitting in my Messenger.
Messages that I'll never reply.
Then I was the one trying to make all these friendships work, I was the one calling and texting and putting in all the effort.
When I got tired, I dropped all of them and years later they are coming to accuse me of not asking about them.
I repeat, heavy thunder flash them.
I think people have a right to shut people out to deal with their shit, not everybody likes having people around all the time. It's in fact very healthy to take breaks from friendships and relationship just to build strong relationships with self and enjoy our individuality.
I do that too.
What is not okay however is strolling back in as if though you bought a plot of land in someone else's life.
This stupid nonsense is what will make some guys be on and off boyfriends, today he's a loving boyfriend, tomorrow he's a stranger, two months later they'll text "Hi Baby".
It is this same madness that will make a man abandon his wife and children for 7years and then one day like the prodigal man that he is walk in with his waka waka legs to beg that she takes him back.
Take you back inside where?
God will create me, put me in charge of my life and another person from hell fire will come and be terrorising me in my space, walking in and out as if he's paying me rent.
Hell to the nah