Sad but relieved

Single once again. At first thought for me this is heartbreaking but it's a huge weight lifted of my shoulders. This relationship has been really unhealthy for a while and just killing me here lately I'm so stressed out I don't even eat.my pants fall off and im constantly poking new holes in my belt. I run off of Rockstar,monster, coca cola and a ass ton of cigarettes and weed. Even though we only broke up a few hours ago I feel like I'm already a happier person. The thing that made this and my last relationship toxic at least for me was my girlfriends unwillingness to get a job and contribute. When you first get together and the guy pays for everything that's cool but when you get a place together it's time to contribute. I've sat up every night for the past forever wondering how this and that is going to get paid while she sits and stares at Instagram like that's helping anything. Sometimes it gets to the point of just wishing I would die so I don't have to worry about things anymore. Well now I don't have to worry about anything but me. It's amazing how all those feelings go away and turn into excitement, I'm ready to start my life again and maybe get it right this time. If there is one lesson I've learned it's always get the apartment in your own name.