I haven't

seen the morning sun for almost a week now. 10 hour sleeps starting from 2am in the morning has now been the regular thing for me. I know it's unhealthy, i know unproductive. It unnerving to me too, realizing that i slump further and further into the chasm of not-doing-the-right-thing and making myself the antithesis of who i want to be.

Soliloquy is meant to be a log of my thoughts and circumstances about myself and any personal happenings i wanna share to the blockchain, I realize so far it has a "negative" mood to it. I mean, I am aware that im going through a rough patch now, of course Soliloquy would reflect the issues i face in my mind. And sharing these out is supposed to create some accountability? I really hope that i can iron things out and start to talk about "the good stuff" brewing in my mind.

Happy Chinese New Year!!

I guess I can say the Eastern hemisphere is on Celebration mode for the past week? I can definitely say so for myself, Chinese New Year (or rather, Lunar New Year) is a time for family and friends and no-business. Honestly as an introvert, that's tiring stuff. I really admire the introverts who can meet people day in day out and not get exhausted off it.

This year I didn't really really visit any friends, only close members of the families. Traditionally my family isn't supposed to even celebrate any festivities with the passing of my father a few months back.

Of course, we have to move on.

In other news, i find it very refreshing to be receiving so many Ang Paus (red packet) even at the old age of 24.. Guess there's still a kid in me. hahaha

So i deleted all mainstream social media off my phone.

Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Linkedin, Snapchat... All off to the bin they went. I was inspired by @vaelriey's post about her deactivating her FB to do something similar to myself.. Of couse, I cant really quit these apps altogether. So i figured I did the next best thing and get them off my phone so at least its not that easy to be distracted by my phone.. the very real "pulling-phone-out-and-scroll-to-waste-time-and-get-dopamine-shot" phenomenon that I've been afflicted with for some time now.

We all are somewhat aware that there's a negative effect of social media to our lives.. But I delved into the matter and understood just how destructive it is when done wrong.. Just one example is this very detailed explanation of Instragram affects its user for both Consumers and Producers...

I can only imagine how other social medias will affect us in other ways.

and so because of that I've taken the jump to be rid of these apps from my phone. If i want to access these sites for urgent reasons. I'd have to do it on my work laptop. by this point i am willing to do something if it even means a 5% bump on my productivity.

So what's ahead.

So most likely i'd be traveling to Kuala Lumpur and Melaka again in a couple of weeks. I'd need to implement my travel discipline and not mess up my schedule. As some of you know, Steemit is not my only job, Professionally I am a drone pilot/instructor in Malaysia. So my work consists of going around Malaysia to perform either classes or field work for clients who are looking to use drones to get whatever they wanted done.

I guess i'd have to end here, halfway through typing this i was pulled by close friends to go have a beer binge-fest. and only after it's done (it's now 4am) that i get this long delayed Soliloquy post done. On to the next week i guess.

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The year 2018 is 7/52 is done, it is now 13.46% gone.

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Kristian Kho [Ian] is a 24 year old freelancer with a passion for steem and a deep desire to be a better person in every aspect. I aim to express any and all my thoughts on things that I find interesting as well as using this platform as a self-development log.

I am a part of #Teammalaysia, a decentralized community initiative that aims to empower local creatives and content creators specifically in Malaysia to create content through the Steem Blockchain.

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