Some more thoughts on "ego".
Something I've been thinking about a lot lately is.. Ego, and.. It's counterpart.
"I" or shall I say.. This vessel has been getting very good at looking at things from a ego dead perspective for lack of a better term.
Lol.. I'm still tripped up over saying "I" all the time.. But I think I'm able to look at things in a much more objective way than ever before.
When the ego is gone, or mostly gone.. There's a sort of "oneness" that is very pleasant! Even though it's terrifying to kill your ego the first time, or the first few times.
But once you're really able to deeply consider the idea that "I" is just an "I"llusion, or at least.. Partly an illusion.. Then the perception of the whole world changes in a sense.
It's truly is an amazing sort of feeling.. To sort of come to the conclusion or realize on some level that everything likely comes from the same source and is on some level connected to the source and an expression and reflection of such.
However! I keep pulling back to ego for a couple reasons.
Here are my two reasons.
#1 I feel like ego is an important part of existence, how could life even work if there was not an individuated/separated awareness to observe it?
#2 A man who I tend to respect in a lot of ways who claims to have been a former Satanic priest in the deep occult has said that the Satanists, or NWO essentially have been trying to instill or condition this belief into people for their own gain.
The first point is my own inherent logic I've come to, the second one is a warning externally from another.
So..The question that arises is.. Why would the predator people in power want to instill a lack of ego into people?
Especially when it seems clear that on the flipside they are simultaneously trying to make people TOO egotistical?
I think the easiest answers are that they want people out of balance in as many ways as they can be.
And.. When you're in the "We're all one" sort of mindstate and that there is no real individual, I think there's a sort of.. Perhaps loving or peaceful feeling that goes along with that.
Which in turns makes people less likely to physically resist when they are sort of off in their own little dreamland of love and acceptance.
I once again keep coming back to the idea that.. Ego death is incredibly important.. To realize that in a sense, we sort of are all "one"... But at the same time.. I think.. The individual is critical as well and without the individual.. Nothing would really work.
It's weird cause I'm sort of battling myself in my mind and it reminds me of a quote that says something like.. "Ego is a ghost that is terrified of dying".
At times I can get so... Lost in the "oneness" of things in a sense, like.. I can drop the ego and realize this is just a temporary flesh sack and that my consciousness is very similar or akin to other consciousnesses even if certain aspects or attributes are different based on the specific experiences of "individuals".
I'm not there and I don't pretend to be.. But I am more and more thinking that one of the most powerful things we can do is to sort of realize both that we are an individual, and.. The "void" or "everything" "non-ego" the "universal mind" as well.
I think if we can come to see ourselves in this manner, it's almost like bridging the worlds of the physical and the divine.
If you can see yourself as both a separated individuated entity and also as the other side of that polarity.. It's almost like being half human, half god.
I know that sounds pretentious to some, heh. I get it.. Though I must say.. There is something really strange about it that I've been feeling lately..
It's almost like.. We really DO have "God" on our side in a way.. This I think is one reason so many people believe God is on their side even when it comes to sports and wars and things of such nature.
You would think "God" would be impartial, and I'm sure it is to an extent, though it's almost like there's a part of "God" itself infused within us.. And this can clearly result in horrible things like people using God to justify dropping bombs on little kids or to take the land away from the natives and things like that. I think it can also express itself in treally beautiful, helpful and healing ways also.
By the way.. I don't even really believe in "God" like many people do, to me that word is more of a metaphor to express the unexpressable source that we all come from, and I don't think it is some kind of sentient being itself, it's more like the fabric of reality that we all move through. But.. It's also us as well, so in a sense. There is some realy sort of animated life to it in my opinion. A spiritual force for lack of a better term.
Anyways.. I think that's enough for now.. I like to try to write/type a little bit every day about things that are on my mind and this is what was on my mind today. Hope someone found something of use there anyone even read it. :) Talk to you later peoples!