40 Days Too Soon

^{Last family day with dad}

It's the 40th days since my dad left us. I wonder why the time passes so quick now. It feels like just yesterday I talked to him and now it's time to draft plans for the 100th days ceremony. I was in a very bad mood yesterday. I woke up early because we have the 40th days prayer and lunch yesterday. I don't know what's making me angry. Everything is not right for me. I went down to the market to buy chickens and some other ingredients. My aunt said, each family will only need to prepare a dish. So I chose butter chicken. @darryljonesjr said to cook soy sauce chicken but knowing my family for so long, I'm sure someone will cook soy sauce chicken. Guess what? Two dishes are soy sauce chicken! Hahaha...

^{My butter chichken}
It's been 40 days, I miss my dad. I can still get confuse sometimes. Just like the other day when my brother found a small snake outside of the house, I thought to myself, Oh no.. My dad will surely blame me for not clearing up around the house and was looking at my phone, waiting for him to call. Then I snapped back from daydreaming, reality hits. What was I thinking, my dad is not around anymore. I miss mum too. I miss talking to my mum about random stuff. I noticed she's getting older when my sister share her pictures in our whatsapp group. I am still very tired from yesterday. I don't know why am I so tired. Maybe it's an emotional day. It's time for rest.

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