A Young Me

When I was younger I used to write all kinds of crazy stories in my journal and read them to my family. I loved it, writing was my passion. Each story I wrote was based off me- of course- and my love interest was always the most current boy I was crushing on. I was not very good with creating new names so everyone kept their real name if they made it to my story. Each setting was based off a different book I was reading or where I wanted to live. It was all so personal and connected to me, but it helped me develop a keen sense for writing.
As I got older, I started writing a little bit of fanfiction off of a very popular series at the time. Can you believe it was Twilight? I was such a dork, but the platform I wrote on had so many people who loved my stories and loved the continuing lives of Edward and Bella, Renesme and Jacob. It was great and I got so many positive comments.
Now, after years of not writing any stories or fanfiction or even diary entries like I used to do daily, I find myself struggling to find the proper words for what I want to say. I am not short of ideas for books, no, that is not the problem. The problem is that I can't figure out what I want to say and it's driving me nuts. I go back and find old stories from when I was younger and I think, "Where did I learn to write like that? How did I figure out how to string together those words?" It's incredible to see what I would come up with and in all honesty.. I'm a little bit jealous of younger me. I was so free with my words and could write (yes write, not type) for hours on end about these little stories I've created and fantasies I want to happen in real life. And now I'm wondering, "How can I get to that point again when the idea of picking up a pencil makes me nervous?"
I still have so many ideas about what I want to write and so many rough drafts I've created in my head. Every time I get down to actually writing it out I clam up and end up sitting with a blank paper in front of me until I give up. I figure the best way to get back to writing like I did before is to start writing religiously again. So when I heard about this website where you can blog and write about anything I got excited. I started the process of setting up an account and am now here, typing my very first blog while I sit at work.
I have no idea what I'm actually going to write on here but I know that as long as I keep up with it then one day I can finish these stories I've created in my head and make younger me proud. I hope whoever reads these enjoys them as much as I will enjoy writing again.