self portrait in pencil 2005
Expressive is the pencil in the hand of the artist. My hands say things when my mouth is shut.
I look back at drawings like this and see so much of what was going on at the time. Please tell me what you see.
Looking forward to talking to you in the comments.
Looks to me like you are feeling twisted out of shape because for whatever reason, you feel you cannot express yourself or your opinion, but feel forced to watch and listen to what others say. An element of fear?
interesting the use of fear and force.... it was indeed a time of beinging in a place of new old surroundings when i hit reset and switched my view to the inside to find me. to find my voice I started observing the flow of words spoken to one self and others. I am now realizing that the Fear of success was what I was getting over or rather starting a new path to fail again or as @gregdickson says First Attempt in Learning. He gave himself postitive feedback for fail so that it was ok for him to fail. I had an issue of getting to big for my pants. I also see the me that was trying to process a new line of questions as i began to Woke from my sleep. Life presented me with a reset and I took it. I threw out what I knew and started asking better questions. I released that inner critic and replaced it with a team of positive vibrations that is way better than anything I could have imagined in 2005 when I did this drawing. I need to do a new self portrait so see how it looks now compared to back then. I am 13 years ascended from that time.
Yes - that should be your next enlightening project - I look forward to seeing the result :)
Wow, this self portrait telling me talking inside much easier than talking outside. Hearing means not always understending.
This drawing is at a time where I choose to listen and observe cuz my mouth had got me in trouble in the past and I started to look for the infinity inside and expressing it in words lacked the space the patterns of lines a drawing can express far beyond the limited wording on a page.
It seems like an Iron Maiden poster... :)
I was listening to industrial music podcasts at the time so perhaps this is a vibe from it.
Probably :)
I see a lot of determination in those eyes! Looks to me like someone who has a lot of passion to get out, and maybe you feel restricted? And your determination is to shred that restriction? I think I know the feeling you're portraying, although it's hard to put into words. I could also be completely wrong.
Either way, it's a great self portrait :)
back in 2005 that is very much what I was feeling you read it very well. I was in a spot where I was busting with creativity but not a big enough outlet. It began my path back to being an artist. So good eye.