Playing 'Taboo'

"Feelings. Heart. Longing. Lost. Force."

I did not know
Where it came from.
All I know is that
A glint
Like that of a mirror
Hit by sunlight
Brought into consciousness
Things that I have known
But have been tucked
At the back of my mind,
Like books in the attic
Gathering dust.
I once knew its name.

I don't know why
It is familiar
with my anatomy.
It has been here before.
I just know it.
It heads to the deep,
The hollow.
The secret.
It spreads
From my chest
Until the end of my fingers.
Some call it
Electricity. Life.
Stirred, disturbed.
Writhing.
Finding its way
to the world outside.

It emerges.
Shaking off the cold.
Its covers peeling,
Exposing hidden lines
And curves and colors.
Motives.
Inside me,
Thoughts of you
Are enough
To shake
things that grow
awake and into existence,
They give birth
to the unexplainable.

It can never fall asleep again.
I can never fall asleep again.
It has found me wanting.