Loved In Silence..

I never thought all my life would be like this, I never knew the origin of all this and suddenly I was confronted by the fact that for me very confusing me. It all started since I was in high school. At that time I was in 11th grade. I was an active child even until actively I forgot that I was a teenager who might be time to love and be loved but I forgot all because of my busyness, even I can not see there is a man who with sincerely love me.

That day was a Saturday schedule where I as chairman of Bantara chaired my usual weekly meetings and my friends were accompanied by my seniors .. because I was the new chairman, so it took a lot of guidance and input from the seniors. The meeting runs smoothly and everyone has come home because I still have some work to say I'm the chairman, I finally got home late. As I was about to go home and head for the motorcycle park suddenly my head was suddenly dizzy and my eyes felt very dark and I do not know what happened to me anymore. And when I realized I had been taken by Rio to UKS one of my seniors who had been at the Bantara meeting.

"Thank you Sister, I've taken me to UKS," I said after consciously unconscious.
"Yeah, it's okay, thank you deh you've realized. Here's a drink first, "she said as she handed me a glass of water.
"Oh yes by the way who brought me here earlier sister yes" I asked again to Kak Rio.
"Yes luck was there I try if baseball, can berabe deh you." Said Kak Rio hero hero.
"Once again thank you Sister." And for a while Zafran came with packed rice and warm tea.
"Eh, this is Zafran coming bawain, food," said Kak Rio.
"Yes this I bring rice wrap for you," said Zafran while giving the rice to me.
"Thank you Fran."

Fortunately there aja Zafran, so he I ordered to buy rice outside, I know you are busy people must forget to take care of themselves let alone about eating, "said Kak Rio.
"Yeah, you know. Thank you again, "I said as I opened the rice wrapped by Zafran. The day went dark and we all went home because I was still weak then I came home escorted by Kak Rio while my bike was delivered by Zafran. In the middle of the trip Kak Rio braked abruptly and accidentally I hold the hip Kak Rio.

"What is Kak?" I asked her.
"I do not know it's like a cat passes," she replied originally.
"Huuh basic guy looking for an opportunity when I've seen people do not have anything too." I muttered silently saw the behavior of Kak Rio.

Day after day and year after year I have graduated from high school and I continue my education to a higher level and at that time I chose to study at one State University in Semarang area. In college I'm also active in some activities like I did in high school first because I am already familiar with the liveliness and if nothing I do I'm confused. And I picked on the scout field that I had always loved since the first, how surprised I was to see that Kak Rio, my older brother used to lecture here even one of the same activities.

"Uh, you Zahra it is," said Kak Rio who still knows me.
"Yeah Kak, I'm old Zahra not meet me still remember me."

Since I was an activist with Kak Rio I and he are getting closer and closer, we often go together laughing together and I feel comfortable close to Kak Rio because he is a good person and very caring. When I came home from the socialization at my high school school and Kak Rio and some of my friends who campus and one activity with me said goodbye and greeted with the teachers first. Kangen seems to be high school days, when I was about to go home I heard the call to prayer Ashar I invited Kak Rio to pray together but he said he wanted to pray at home aja now want to cepet back he said and you can not forbid him to be able to mengimamiku when finished ablution turns out there is Zafran who may want to pray too.

"Eh Zafran we pray together yuk, you deh the imami," I said to him who was ready to pray.
"Aa-I," she said haltingly.
"It's my time, you're a boy. There you are. "Then Zafran began his prayers. Allahu Akbar came the very solemn voice of Zafran and I first heard.

These are my last two semesters of college and study here and soon I will face my next life. And until I did not realize I was getting closer to Kak Rio and maybe I had fallen in love with him. "Announcements for a student named Zahra Agustin Nisa are awaited in front of Intraholl right now."
"Tuh Ra, you are called tuh," said Resha reminding me.
"Iye-iye ane also know." I replied to Resha immediately I asked for permission to my professor and out of class.

"There's a fuck I'm tumben-tumbenan summoned," I said as I walked, and I was very surprised that there had been a Rio Kak standing on a small stage pointing at me and there were some students and college students who were there. "What the hell does Rio's make me feel embarrassed?" My heart wonders. And soon Kak Rio came up to me and knelt down in front of me holding my hand, oh how surprised I was then.

"Ra, we've known for a long time since we were in high school and we're destined to be together here on campus. The longer this feeling gets to you the greater Ra, and I can not bear to hold it any longer. Your beautiful eyes that always amaze me and your face that always makes me happy. Ra I really like you, you want to be my boyfriend. "Said Kak Rio that made me unable to say anything torn course the students and students who saw the incident became noisy and asked me to accept Kak Rio.

"Accept .. Accept .. Accept." They say with compact and I do not know anymore what I have to say with Kak Rio, I'm not sure with the feeling that I have all the time to him I think this feeling is just a comfortable feeling and I confused what should I answer and finally I just nodded all the joy and Kak Rio put a ring on my fingers.

Fortunately there aja Zafran, so he I ordered to buy rice outside, I know you are busy people must forget to take care of themselves let alone about eating, "said Kak Rio.
"Yeah, you know. Thank you again, "I said as I opened the rice wrapped by Zafran. The day went dark and we all went home because I was still weak then I came home escorted by Kak Rio while my bike was delivered by Zafran. In the middle of the trip Kak Rio braked abruptly and accidentally I hold the hip Kak Rio.

"What is Kak?" I asked her.
"I do not know it's like a cat passes," she replied originally.
"Huuh basic guy looking for an opportunity when I've seen people do not have anything too." I muttered silently saw the behavior of Kak Rio.

Day after day and year after year I have graduated from high school and I continue my education to a higher level and at that time I chose to study at one State University in Semarang area. In college I'm also active in some activities like I did in high school first because I am already familiar with the liveliness and if nothing I do I'm confused. And I picked on the scout field that I had always loved since the first, how surprised I was to see that Kak Rio, my older brother used to lecture here even one of the same activities.

"Uh, you Zahra it is," said Kak Rio who still knows me.
"Yeah Kak, I'm old Zahra not meet me still remember me."

Since I was an activist with Kak Rio I and he are getting closer and closer, we often go together laughing together and I feel comfortable close to Kak Rio because he is a good person and very caring. When I came home from the socialization at my high school school and Kak Rio and some of my friends who campus and one activity with me said goodbye and greeted with the teachers first. Kangen seems to be high school days, when I was about to go home I heard the call to prayer Ashar I invited Kak Rio to pray together but he said he wanted to pray at home aja now want to cepet back he said and you can not forbid him to be able to mengimamiku when finished ablution turns out there is Zafran who may want to pray too.

"Eh Zafran we pray together yuk, you deh the imami," I said to him who was ready to pray.
"Aa-I," she said haltingly.
"It's my time, you're a boy. There you are. "Then Zafran began his prayers. Allahu Akbar came the very solemn voice of Zafran and I first heard.

These are my last two semesters of college and study here and soon I will face my next life. And until I did not realize I was getting closer to Kak Rio and maybe I had fallen in love with him. "Announcements for a student named Zahra Agustin Nisa are awaited in front of Intraholl right now."
"Tuh Ra, you are called tuh," said Resha reminding me.
"Iye-iye ane also know." I replied to Resha immediately I asked for permission to my professor and out of class.

"There's a fuck I'm tumben-tumbenan summoned," I said as I walked, and I was very surprised that there had been a Rio Kak standing on a small stage pointing at me and there were some students and college students who were there. "What the hell does Rio's make me feel embarrassed?" My heart wonders. And soon Kak Rio came up to me and knelt down in front of me holding my hand, oh how surprised I was then.

"Ra, we've known for a long time since we were in high school and we're destined to be together here on campus. The longer this feeling gets to you the greater Ra, and I can not bear to hold it any longer. Your beautiful eyes that always amaze me and your face that always makes me happy. Ra I really like you, you want to be my boyfriend. "Said Kak Rio that made me unable to say anything torn course the students and students who saw the incident became noisy and asked me to accept Kak Rio.

"Accept .. Accept .. Accept." They say with compact and I do not know anymore what I have to say with Kak Rio, I'm not sure with the feeling that I have all the time to him I think this feeling is just a comfortable feeling and I confused what should I answer and finally I just nodded all the joy and Kak Rio put a ring on my fingers.

When I finished reading the letter I did not realize that the clear grain dripped from my eyelids. "Why Fran, why do not you ever say this from the first. And why am I so stupid that I never realized your sincere love, why I was not sensitive to my feelings and never realized that I myself too loved you so much. "I never thought that Zafran had such a deep feeling for me. When I put the letter behind the book there is also an Agenda or maybe a Diary and I quickly read it immediately.

18/08/2007
"Oh yes Rabb, this is the first time I met a beautiful woman charming and invincible by the figure of an angel once. When I was first in the Student Orientation Period and I saw him I immediately fell in love with him. But all those flavors I'll hold until I'm sure that it's really a holy love and not muddied by lust. "
8/11/2008
"Zahra, realize I am helping you not Rio. I brought you here instead of him. I own the initiative to give you food instead of him, realize Zahra I implore here I am who sincerely love you. It's also painful to see the person he loves being riding together in front of my own eyes. "

30/12/2010
"Thank you God, you have met me with Zahra Back and it turns out we can still meet again me and he one campus we even choose the same activity, but that I worry about reappear. My seniors Rio was also a campus and a joint activity. "
17/03/2012
"Destroyed it, shattered all feelings, vanished already all the love I have long treated. As if it had been destroyed and could never grow again. When you know you've been with him, as he kneels before you and you accept it right in front of me. It felt like my soul was dead. "
11/06/2014
"It's good that Zahra can go home alone with you, even though the weather was rainy and overcast but not with my feelings as if the dead feeling had blossomed again by the swift rain. I want time to stop and want to be with you. "

After reading all the writings of Zafran now returning my tears of relentless and incessant metes, I want to repeat all the memories by enjoying the beauty of true love, genuinely sincere love and making happiness with her. I regretted what I had done to him, but I realized that all the regrets were meaningless and I immediately got up and went to see Zafran still lying in the hospital helpless awaiting my presence there as an encouragement of his life because I'm sure it's not too late to reply love Zafran.

When I got there I saw Zafran lying helpless to feel like I was crying but I had to be tough in front of him, "Fran, you're better?" I say trying to greet him with a bitter smile at him. "Yes," she said simply, smiling back at me, and I knew she was smiling as she held her pain, but I knew it was the sincere, shady smile she often gave me. Indeed, the doctor said should not move or talk much even though the situation has started to improve after the operation yesterday after tomorrow.

After three months of hospitalization Zafran was finally allowed to go home by the doctor even though he was in a wheelchair I gladly pushed him and drove him home, On the way Zafran told his driver to stop his car in a park, and at once I was surprised and wondered, "Why should he stop here?" And as I expect many young couples are having fun there and they remind me of Zafran as we study together in this park yes, seven years ago and this place never changes.

I see Zafran just sitting in his wheelchair, closing his eyes, whatever he thinks as if he feels happy and a few seconds later he tells what he thinks. The days are getting better and I always accompany him every day and I have also left Kak Rio for Zafran My true love is originally Kak Rio a little disappointed but he immediately understands my circumstances and Zafran. But Zafran's condition did not last long a year after Zafran and I underwent a courtship together with Zafran's brain cancer began to gnaw at his body again and the condition was getting worse. And that time Kak Rio came to see him as always I was always present on the side of Zafran.

"Rio sister, I know you love Zahra very much. I also know you are still in love with him, therefore I entrust Zahra to you. Because I know only you can keep my Zahr, "said Zafran confidently. "Fran, you can not say that, you have to be strong. We are going to have this together, "I said, crying tightly on Zafran's hand. "Ra, sorry I can not nemenin you. Kak I nitip Zahra, Ashadualla illa ha illaulahu. "And those are the words Zafran uttered for the last time, and according to Zafran's mandate we were married one year after Zafran's death.

Above Zafran's grave I am deeply grateful to Zafran for the sincere love he has bestowed on me, I also thank Zafran for choosing me a husband who can protect me and keep me as he looks after me, even though he is different from the way he does. There Mas Rio was so call me to my husband. Gently stroking my hair tried to stretch me over all the incident.

"Thank you Fran, for all your goodness and have entrusted Zahra to me, I promise I will keep it for you and for my love for her, even though I know my love is not as big and sincere as your love." Said Mas Rio in front of Zahra's grave.
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